money, money fly away~~~ don't gooooo~~~~

i am super broke. no more shopping for, like, ever? kena tambah one more job. biaq pi penat nak mati nanti. hidup mesti diteruskan. first black friday was super fun, super penat. believe it or not, orang sanggup beratur 2 jam, (in the cold, mind you) just to get coach handbags. maybe berbaloi to some yang pulun penuhkan dua2 lengan dengan coach handbags. bawak balik jual kot. and suprisingly, banyak gila foreigner ( macam aku) shopping black friday kat outlet. like seriously, I can hardly see Americans shop at the outlets. but the price is unbelievable. memang murah compared to normal days, and wayyy cheaper dari kat malaysia.

so now, sape baik hati nak transfer through paypal kat aku?

ps: first (real) snow. hari tu hailing je, tak kira. ngee..

snow turun malam, kalau tangkap gambar pun tak nampak. so this is the picture morning after the snowing. tak la tebal, but good enough for me. ingat kitorang je yang excited snow turun, rupanya ramai lagi yang "peghak", even some americans pun excited macam first time tengok snow, macam la kitorang. heh.

it's hailing, not snowing.. meh!!

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and now, it's sunny =.='

cry all you want, but promise me you'll come back standing tall to face this cruel world

(to my friends who are now struggling with exams, their own feelings and the madness of this world. grab a bar of chocolate, hold your big, fat CJ7 stuffed toy close to you (you know who you are), and start reading.)

i've seen a lot of sadness these days. loss, death of the loved ones, sickness, failures, disappointments. heck, who says this life is gonna be like taking an afternoon nap on the fluffy cloud?

aku sejak sampai kat tanah uncle sam ni banyak dugaan melanda. kadang-kadang serious aku rasa nak drop everything, hop on the next flight to malaysia, and go home. and balik belajar masak, dok bawah ketiak mama aku sampai ada orang nak pinang aku.

oh damn, kunonya aku!

so apa aku boleh buat? menangis and tunggu knight in shining armor rescue me? a prince with bleach blonde hair, blue eyes, hands me a handkerchief to shed my tears? aku mati dulu pun takda maknanya jadi macam tu. yes, crying can ease your pain, but the most important thing is that you'll get up and face your worst nightmare.

someone told me once that kita diduga sebab Tuhan sayangkan kita, Dia tak nak kita leka. so we should be thankful kalau diduga. remember that when the world turns upside down, there's always someone who suffers more.

kalau fail test, ada orang yang tak pernah jejak sekolah langsung. kalau laptop rosak sampai berminggu-minggu, ada orang yang tak pernah tau pasal komputer. kalau tak ada duit, ada orang lain yang tak makan.

so the bottom line is, hardship will always find you, but happiness never leave. it just hiding behind that big, bad wolf. face that wolf, show that straight face, gertak sikit, maybe fight with that wolf, then you'll find the happiness. you may take a longer time than others, but patience is the virtue.

ps: siapa2 yang baca ni, aku rindu sangat kat korang!! and sorry aku tak chat/skype dengan korang. but you guys are always in my mind <3