puff it once more

snow tengah menggila kat luar. and I am stuck here trying to finish this report.
perut lapar. harus pulang mencari makanan.

nowplaying: empayarmu-hujan

my morale is going down deeper each day. really need that boost.
or everything will be going down the drain.

until when you want to keep on blaming the fever?
ohoiiiii

high fever makes me high

I miss those days when my mom taken me to the doctor and she is the one who answer all the questions and I would just lie on her lap in the doctor's office.

penat memandang langit sepanjang malam, rupanya hanya 'slushie' menungguku di tanah

penat tengok cerita budak-budak scene yang rebel. wanna talk about teenage life? banyak lagi cerita remaja. bukan cerita budak scene rebel je. duh. realistic sikit cerita. the script was lifeless, actor was stiff. i know you were the 'mamat jambu' of the group, but please.

hipster. heh

ps: want that knee-high boots. fake ugg's dying, and dragging my feet along.
pps: forget it, pay your debt, woman. ugh

hi, still remember me?

it's about 5 minutes before midnight. before 2012 ends. before 2013 comes in and brings more joy for us, insyaAllah.
There were a lot of things happened in my life this year. I failed in some, I succeeded in some. I found love, and I lost large part of it. I've made it through my freshman year. I've lost my grandmother the day before winter quarter started. I still can't believe that 2011 was the last time I saw her. She knew that I love her pulut kacau so much that she made me the most scrumptious pulut kacau when I last saw her. I guess no more seeing Tokpok on the couch watching her favorite drama in the sunny afternoon when I go back to Malaysia next year.

I bet anyone's life is a constant battle. We win something today, but we may lose something else tomorrow, or we may just die the day after tomorrow. But all we can do to make the life worth living is believing that Allah is planning the best for us. Patah tumbuh, hilang berganti, kan?

So for 2013, I don't really have any resolutions. I'll just work harder to be better person, every single day, until these eyes are closed forever. It doesn't matter what year it is, or what age I am. Like I said, life is a constant battle.

Happy 2013.

diam

bila aku bercakap, katanya aku menengking, sarcastic segala. padahal tengah hari tadi elok je dok kat library buat kerja sama2. entah bila yang aku menengking pun tak tau.
bila aku mintak attention sikit, cerita tok kaduk semua naik. elok la. time aku tengah vulnerable la nak serang aku personally. bagus strategi tarbiyyah kau.
bila aku dah diam tak cakap sepatah,
sorang lagi mintak lembut hati. pernah kau tanya kenapa tiba-tiba aku jadi macam ni?
pernah tanya tak? unmention kat twitter, apa point kau?
pernah tanya tak kawan kau cakap apa kat aku bila aku tengah down?

sendiri pikir la wei. cakap salah, tak cakap salah

tau kenapa?

tau kenapa aku suka menjerit?

sebab dari kecik tak ada siapa yang dengar masalah aku.

dari kecik sampai aku besar tak ada siapa yang cuba nak memahami aku.

dan tu jugak kenapa aku jadi pendendam, merajuk non stop.

bestfriend tak bestfriend, sama saja

happy sama2 nak

ada masalah, semua lari

lari la kau

sakit

sakit di badan boleh la orang nampak.

tapi

sakit gusi bengkak pun tak sape tau. sakit tanggung sendiri.

menjerit macam mana pun tak peduli.


sakit dia lebih sakit mungkin.


aku ada hari aku, kau ada hari kau